Year 2: Day 315: Fed Up

Have you ever noticed how you sometimes have to get so fully fed up or disgusted before making an actual change?

Have you ever noticed how sometimes the quickest way to get to that feeling is to totally immerse yourself (in whatever activity you will eventually get disgusted by)?

Yeah, I wish I was different and didn't operate that way....but I am not, so I don't.

Today, I hit that saturation level.

I hit it with eating crappy.

I wouldn't call myself a foodie. I like food. I'm just a little lazy about it.

I know I need to cut back on the processed food. I know I need to cut back on junk food. I know I need to cut back on fast food. I know I need to cut back on sugar.

Actually, I was able to cut back on sugar in May of this year. Since May, I only have dessert one time a month. I don't drink soft drinks or other sugary drinks. I don't eat candy, cupcakes, cakes, ice cream, etc... I'm not reading labels and I am not cutting sugar out of recipes. Just cut back on the obvious stuff.

Wow! What a difference!

I don't crave it at all. I can no longer eat a normal portion - much to sweet. I prefer, honestly, prefer just a small scoop or slice....just about three or four bites worth.

Once I have had it, I'm good. I'm not tempted by leftovers or anything else.

I have learned to say politely, "no thank you" without an explanation, but happy to provide one if someone asks.

I love the feeling.

So....I've been struggling to do the same thing with junk food and fast food. Junk food as in chips and crackers. I think fast food speaks for itself.

Yeah, I have been failing miserably. I can't tell myself no, let alone anyone else.

For the last couple of weeks, I have become increasingly more frustrated with my inability to keep junk/fast food down to one time a month. I mean, come on, it worked for sugar!

But no, it just isn't working the same this time. I really don't know what the difference is....

But today, as I sat in Wendy's munching on their new BBQ ranch chicken salad I realized one, I don't really like the BBQ ranch dressing. The salad would have been so much better with out it and two, I had no desire to eat my burger.

I made a half hearted attempt to eat my burger, but after one bite...ugh, I just didn't want it.

I am truly tired of the pizza, the bread sticks, the fries, the burgers, the chicken sandwiches. I just don't want to eat it.

I think, sadly, for me I am going to have to be 100% abstinence to the junk/fast food world. Sigh. It is going to be hard, but I need to do it.

I need to get off this addictive roller coaster. And I need to do it cold turkey.

Wish me luck!

Happy Walking!