Happy the day after Christmas!

Friday, December 26, 2025

Here I am again.

I doubt I will ever get the hang of taking care of myself - healthy eating, exercising, getting enough sleep, destressing constructively, etc.

It all seems too much sometimes.

Yet, here I am again.

I have recently been diagnosed with pre-diabetes. Fancy term to scare a person into changing a lifetime of habits so they don't become a full-blown diabetic. Didn't work on my dad, nor my mom. I might have a brother who is diabetic as well...so I guess it didn't work on anyone in my family.

Sigh.

This does not bode well for me.

What I have done in the past:

Walked for a year! I even have the receipts. Ha! Why did I stop? Um, because I did it to prove my doctor wrong. Technically, he was right. At the time, I didn't really see it that way, so I quit. What I know about myself: My digestive system works better when I walk every day. I prefer walking with people.

I only had dessert and obvious sugar once a month. I did this for a year. Why? Because I was slowly gaining weight. Lived with my in-laws, and there were copious amounts of desserts and sugary foods. Why did I stop? The holiday season hit, and I wanted to try all the different Christmas goodies. What I know about myself: I have a major sweet tooth. When left unchecked, it rules the roost. I also have the discipline to go without. I like eating with other people. Eating yummy food is a very sociable thing to do.

What I have attempted in the past:

Yoga, turning electronics off before bed (anywhere from an hour to 15 minutes), weight lifting, stretches and exercises for my core, pelvis, and posture, taking daily naps, tracking my food intake on MyFitnessPal, wearing a Fitbit to track my steps, a foam roller, and Zumba.

I enjoyed all those things. Unsure why I quit any of them - this is really a therapy problem.

So where do I start? 

I am already tracking my water, fruit, and vegetable intake because my urologist told me to after I had surgery to remove my first-ever kidney stone! I'll do what it takes to never have that problem again.

If I start too fast, then I will give up (see the above list). I want to go slow like I have been doing for my water, fruits & veggies. Example: After three years, I am finally drinking six glasses of water every day.

But where to start?

What will serve me best?

What will help me the most?

What if I fail or quit again?

What if I get full-blown diabetes?

What if none of this matters? (okay that might be my negativity showing.)

Where would you start? What would you do if you were in my shoes?