Even though I have walked everyday that I have had this nasty cold, I feel like my enthusiasm is waning. I feel as if my walking efforts are slipping...like I am walking a bit slower and just not caring.
It bothers me that I have these feelings. I mean just a couple of weeks ago I was all gung ho about walking, stretching, getting in shape....and now? nothing.
I honestly thought that once I got past my normal 3 month slacking that I wouldn't have any problems for the rest of the year. I guess I was wrong.
But I also wonder if that is normal in a journey - be it a fitness journey or a learning journey or a parenting journey or just the journey of life. Many people speak of the ups & downs of their lives - I heard one girl use the roller coaster as an analogy for life. I really think that I have been a bit naive in this area. Incorrectly thinking that if I could just make something a routine it would always be a routine that I loved & was excited about...except I have never had that happen...once.
I am actually laughing at myself now. Is marriage a constant up? Um, no!!!! Neither is parenting, neither is home schooling, neither is attending church or anything spiritual for that matter....so why in the world do I have that as my ideal? Why in the world do I expect that to be the norm and then get all kinds of bummed when it doesn't happen? why????
I love writing because it really forces me to look at myself.
When I started this post I was all bummed because I am not excited about walking. And now? Now, I get it. I am on a down. No big deal. I will walk anyway...and sooner or later I will get excited about it again. I like this realization. This is good.
Happy Walking!
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