Day 342: Temptation begins....

I am a junk-aholic...I love junk food.

I love french fries. I love cheeseburgers. I love grilled cheese sandwiches. I love pizza. I love cheese breadsticks. I love donuts. I love chips. I love root beer. I love ice cream. I love chocolate. I love candy.

I know I love these things. I know I am a junk-aholic...it is far better to never take a bite (or sip), than to attempt to take just one bite (or sip)....it is almost an impossibility for me to show any kind of self restraint.

I admit this freely. I hang my head in shame over my weakness...but it is a truth. I love junk food.

If I don't buy it, I won't eat it. If I can hide what is bought (in the freezer, in a high cupboard or in the back of the pantry) than I will forget it about it (out of sight - out of mind).

If the offending item sits on my counters or in my fridge than I will constantly crave it. The more I fight the crave, the more I want it. Take a bite to satisfy the craving....I want more. This is a very serious problem. very serious.

Most of the year I can keep a handle on this loss of self-control....and then....Halloween comes. Yup, my old nemesis, Halloween.

The candy is everywhere in my home. It calls to me often. I strive to rid my house of all candy on Halloween night just to end the nightmare, but alas, my children bring more into the house!

I have, over the years, learned to control myself if the candy is in a bag or bowl that has been labeled with someone's name. My brain understands "this is not yours, do not crave." Sigh. Why does that not work with the "no-man's" candy?

We went to church for trunk or treating tonight (the nightmare begins early this year!). I will not touch my children's candy, but the chocolate...the candy....that is left over and ready to give our Halloween night beckons to me....calling me.

I must resist. I must find a way this year to overcome my struggle. My love for all things junk. I must.

Happy Walking!